selfishness.....

selfishness... what is that? i won't go explaining the defination from the dictionary, mainly because i'm too lazy to reach for one.


selfishness is often classified to be the darker side of humans. there's no human being around me who are not selfish. somehow, everyone is acting to their best interest. selfishness can be so cruel. as a result, it can be something small, like cutting queues, kiasu.. and in some big cases, robbing, war.... and the list goes on. when i think of it, most of the things that happen around us each day are caused by selfishness.


but why sometime we need ppl to be selfish, but they are not? ppl who give up on a relationship, saying that they dunwan to be selfish. what would the other half think? will they behave like me? giving away the relationship, blaming :" sometimes i wish that you would be more selfish"
is this merely an excuse, or sometimes, ppl can be this noble?


i spent most of my life, giving.. helping.. supporting.. but sometimes, no doubt, i am selfish too.. i always thought to myself, giving is a must in a relationship.. there wil be no finite value to that cause i think: for someone who can accept for who you are, and willing to be with you for a long period, is priceless.. there will be no returns for what you have been investing so, stop counting!! the reward however, is the word "forever"...


when i was young, (not that i am old now) i always thought about how would i treat my future gf. it's not day dreaming, but i call it, planning.. to anticipate all posibility. (haha) it was always me in my mind, and i never thought of how would my the other half will think or react to how i treated them... will they appreciate it? what will they think about you and what you do? or it would just scare them away.


they might think that they cannot love you the way you love them. but do you know, your other half is trying their best to love you and trying to make you love them. do you know that they are pouring their hearts at you, not hoping for return, but to hope for you to accept them? stop saying that you cannot do it, without even trying it! I'm not forcing you guys or whatsoever.i am just pleading, for you to listen to our hearts and how we feel about you. all we ever wanted, is your regconition and acceptance.


you can hear it... but can you listen??